Should I Stay or Should I Go?

Today is going to be a short post (well it started as short) on what it was like trying to decide to transfer schools.I.E. Should I stay or should I go? lol Yes that is totally a song reference and yes it reminds me of Stranger Things every time I say it. Which, by the way, if you haven’t watched I strongly recommend watching it and powering through the first two episodes, I swear it gets better.

Back to the topic, what was it like deciding to transfer schools. I fell in love with my current school when I was a Senior in High School. We will call this school Apple University or AU for short. I’m not really sure what happened or when exactly I fell in love. But, I do remember that my amazing, beautiful and loving mother of mine took me on a tour to AU and stuck out the annoying walking all around campus. I fell in love with that moment with my Momma more than anything else. I was finally a grown up, a big kid, I was officially a College student! I remember my Mom told me that I could go anywhere I wanted and she wanted me to be happy. That’s when I fell in love with AU. When my Mom told me that she would help me to achieve my dreams and no matter what, I could go there. So, I did. I chose AU and I loved the school, until I got here. I tried and tried to fall in love with AU like I did on that tour. But the passion was no longer there. I blamed my falling out of love on the person that I had also fallen out of love with. But, as I grew and got over it, I was still not in love with AU like I was before.

(P.S. Shout out to my Mom! She has been my rock through College and has always helped me to achieve my greatest potential. If it wasn’t for her working her ass off to keep me at AU, I would have never realized that I could strive better somewhere else. Thank you Momma for sacrificing yourself, your time and your money on helping me succeed.)

By the time I left AU for summer, I was in a committed and loving relationship. My boyfriend just so happens to go to the school that I am transferring too. And no, he is not the reason I am transferring. We will call my new school Banana or BU for short. During my freshman year at AU, I visited BU a lot to see my Boyfriend. Due to us being rivals, I did not want to admit I loved the school. Instead, I fought it will all my might and called my Mom crying every time I had to come back to AU. I did not want to leave. I never wanted to leave. However, I sucked it up and refused to admit I loved BU.

My Sophomore year rolled around and I came back to AU with a positive attitude. The long distance relationship didn’t bother me anyhow. It was the first visit to BU that got to me. I had the most fun that I had ever had in my college career at BU. I made friends and developed a life that I never thought imaginable for myself. I called my mom crying my entire drive back home. And the crying never stopped. I was miserable. It got to the point that my mom wanted me to see a therapist, but I refused. I convinced myself that I was going to be okay. And I tried. I fought for weeks to try and feel the love for AU that I had felt previously. But, with every visit to BU my depression got worse. It finally got to the point that I couldn’t handle it anymore. I looked into BU and the degrees that I could get there. To my surprise, they actually have an amazing Pre-law track that I could be on while pursuing my Education major. It was then that I made the decision to leave.

The process was LONG and extraordinarily difficult, but, I have no doubt in my mind that it will be worth it. I have been so much happier since my decision to move and I cannot wait to officially be a BU student.

So, Should I stay or Should I go? If you’re asking yourself this question than ask yourself the following too:

Will transferring benefit me mentally, physically, emotionally or academically?

*If you answered yes, look into new schools. Mental and Emotional health is, in my opinion, the most important thing in a person’s life. If you are not mentally or emotionally healthy then it is almost impossible to enjoy your life. Plus, the many other issues that can arise from weakened mental/emotional health. I’ll save that for another post.

Am I truly happy or am I faking it?

*I think this one is self-explanatory.

Am I staying because of what others might say?

*Answering yes to this question can be rather difficult. No one honestly likes to admit that they aren’t doing something because of other people. However, it is SO common for people to not want to be judged and that is completely natural. Just think about this: Don’t let yourself be miserable because you don’t want others to judge you. It is not their life. They don’t have to like what you’re doing. The only person that matters is yourself. Own it.

In the end, it really doesn’t matter why you decide to leave your current school or even situation. You don’t owe anyone an explanation. If you leave because somewhere else makes you more happy then hell go! Leave! Enjoy your life! You only get to be young once and life is too precious to be wasted on a shitty place.

If anyone wants to know more about my personal transfer, or if anyone wants to talk about their situation. Please feel free to comment! I love to talk about myself, i.e. this blog. lol, no. But really, I do love to help others and if there is anyway that I can please feel free to ask!

Much love,

Katie (:

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